~Movin' in the Right Direction~

Well, things are movin' along, slowly but surely! I have a place to move into, not the one 1 block from the river, but only 2 longer ones, & 1 block from the mall (with my favorite fabric shop!) where I can walk when it's too hot (or cold!) outside!
Unfortunately, it's even closer to McDeath's, (oops, I mean McDonald's , of course!) but I'm going back to the promise I made when Hannah was born, no McD's for us! (Lasted till she was 3, sigh)...
...if it's not an option, it won't tempt us, right?!?!?
I got a huge bag of the sweetest rhubarb from our friend's garden the other day, so I made rhubarb applesauce (with blueberries!), & have a bunch left for today! I've been transitioning back, have a fridge fulla produce, am hoping to get into the lab early this week, (no piano lessons the next 2 wednesday's, so no ride!) so I can finally get back to 100%! I want the lab tests to be an accurate 'before' reading, but if it doesn't happen soon, I ain't waitin' much longer! Mybe I'll have to work up to bussing & walking...(unless Shannon does come in this week! Hi, Shanny!)
...& I figured out how to make & post video's to Youtube, & how to keep them private until I'm ready to share them, (when I've made a few month's worth, & the progress is beginning to be clear) so in the next few days, I'll be making my first one! (& yes, FINALLY posting my BEFORE pics!) I'll share the link here, seeing as there's so few readers anyways, at this point~
Packing's goin' slow as molasses, but it's finally happening daily, & we're finally both no longer sick! I'm finding it impossible to get up on not enough sleep lately, just can't get out of bed & function, but am also sleeping deeper & longer, which is making it easier to get more done during the day~
( I confess, I broke down & got some herbal sleep aid, I just wasn't getting any restorative sleep, & was staying up later & later again, till 4 & 5 am!)
I'm determined to shed the label 'disabled', & get going with the goals, dreams, plans & visions that have been on my heart for so many years! I remember last year my sister bluntly saying to me that, "Basically, your obesity has disabled you..." & reeling with the truth of it~
Yes, I have FM, PCOS, & other things going on, but they were never so bad until the weight started piling on...of course, slowing down cuz of the FM helped that happen...
I dreamt the other night that i was in the body i dwelt in when i was about 20, just before i conceived my son, Joshua...i was 185 strong, muscular, only slightly overweight pounds...(...compared to now...of course i still had 40-50 lbs to lose...I had lotsa muscle, was firm & strong, & my abundant chest made it clear I'll likely never get below 140-150 & look/be healthy!) The biggest shock of all was that it felt like i was HOME, & myself again.
{With all the stress of moving, HOME has been on my heart a lot lately...}
In this dream, i was walking down to the beach, skipping along happily, & then, Hannah was there with me, & we were at the ocean where I scattered my son's ashes. I was telling her all about how I'd spent my pregnancy walking on the beach & seawall for hours, & burying my belly in the sand, in my maternity bathing suit, so i could lie face down again! We were laughing & running into the ocean, & it was so amazing! She was about 13...(she's 11 & a half now!) I haven't taken her down there sinse she was 5 or so, our last 3 years or so in Vancouver I was too unhealthy to do all the walking it would require...
...& boy, i sure didn't wanna wake up! But I'm awake now, ready to get to work to make that dream reality! & we have a date for the spring/summer Hannah is 13, to go spend the day at English Bay, & walking the beach, & seawall!
When we're walking along the river road here, the one i grew up by, looking out at the mountains, I'll be looking forward to the day when we are there together, by the ocean once more, at home in my body again~