YAWN!!!!

(Today's weight, 379 lbs...5 down sinse starting over...highest weight, 398lbs on May 7th...19 down, 240 or so to go....)
Got up at 7:45 am to see Hannah off for a field trip....was up till 5 am-ish...stayed up 'til 10 am or so, got a wee bit of packing done, in slow-motion, but fell asleep in my chair eating a yummy sweet grapefruit, so went back to bed....set the alarm for 2 hours, didn't set it right, slept 4! So much for getting lots done today...
....now she's off to church...came home, ate, & is running out the door again...oh, to have the energy of the young! She's tired, but it barely slows her down!!!
I'm so excited to get moved, & have my kitchen be only 100% raw! Hannah has a little cupboard on our desk that locks, & she'll be allowed to have a few healthy but non-raw choices in there, & only she will have the key....& she'll be the one to prepare that food for herself. She likes that idea, & said it will help her to be as raw as possible & not feel too deprived. She wants to be 100%, but has admitted she isn't quite ready. I want to support her efforts, & not force her, so this is the solution we've arrived at.
My first main goal for the end of the summer is to be down to 325, my pre-&-post pregnancy weight 11 years ago. (I could move a lot easier, & was a 2X-3X...am a 5X+ now...have LOTS of clothes that will fit me then, have few now...)
I maintained that weight for years until the FM got real limiting of my mobility, & the pounds crept on, 10 or 15 more every year. When i conceived Hannah, I changed my 1 meal a day lifestyle to 3 & snacks, & a lot healthier food, & 40 lbs fell off my body in about 3 months, so i ended up weighing the same at the end of my pregnancy as the beginning...
...i struggle still with remembering to eat, experiencing true hunger, getting in enough calories when I'm 100%, it seems near impossible if i don't start eating within an hour or two of getting up, but I'm working on that. (Going to bed slightly hungry helps.)
I'm noticing already, with the raw I've been consuming, as the smoothies, especially, that sleeping is already starting to feel more refreshing (typically a problem with FM) & even handling not getting enough (or interrupted) sleep isn't so totally incapacitating as it was just a short while ago.
I'm in awe, every time i get serious about raw again, how quickly i notice the little differences, that so quickly add up to BIG differences!
I love, (& am so thankful for!) how incredibly God created our self-healing bodies to respond to what He created for food!
I love the way His GRACE is revealed & demonstrated in our bodies, how they forgive us, & quickly do all they can to restore us to what we were originally created to be...
{...just as He does, when we return to Him, & His ways...}
...just like, even though there's a price we pay for sin, His forgiveness & grace washes the guilt away, & helps us deal with the consequences...
(...though sometimes it takes us awhile to let it go ourselves...)
It's like that for me, with returning to what He's created for food, & shown me will restore me to health...
...there's been a price I've paid for ignoring what i know He's shown me to do years ago, & for going back & forth, but my body continually confirms to me that there is healing eager to quickly unfold, if i just keep on trusting & obeying what He's shown me to do!
Like I've discovered concerning my marriage, & the life decisions I've made in 19 years of Christian life, it's worth it, no matter what's required, to be in His will!!!
(& He never asks more of us than we're capable of!)
What I'm finally willing to give up is nothing compared to what He has in store, patiently waiting to surprise & bless me with...if i just STAY surrendered to His revealed will!
The truth is, it's like Christmas every day with Jesus back on the throne of my heart!
{ Especially when food is no longer there, vying for my devotion! }
One of my favorite verses is what i like to think of as His personal prayer & desire for me...
"Beloved, I wish above all things for you to prosper & be in good health!"
{This is my hope & prayer for you, too, Dear Reader...}