Back in the Land of the Living (Food, that is!)

Wow, where has the time gone?!?!?!?
I'm back, ready to get on with it, the holidaze are over! Shannon (her link's on the side, my raw food coach & sweet friend) pursuaded me to delete the games off my computer that I've been wasting time on, as she recently did herself...
{...she's such a blessing to know, it's so great when someone loves you enough to tell you the truth, & there's clearly no judgement, just compassion & concern shared kindly! Her friendship reminds me of that saying, "God loves us as we are, but so much He doesn't leave us that way!"}
...I can see it's been a form of escapism, there's been way too much on my plate, & I've just been shutting down, ignoring things, feeling worse by the day the further away I've drifted from raw...
...but I'm ready to fully return to the land of the living (foods!) & get moving again, & not allow the pressure I've been under to rob me of another day of pursuing health!
The heat's been wiping me out, but I'm finally no longer a major night owl, & am getting up between 7 & 9, depending on when I get to bed...the earlier it is, the better I feel, though I've been a night owl all my life, even as a child~
I think part of what's been going on is, I've been kinda overwhelmed with the likelihood that i have MS, & all that means, especially for the future...like, if i needed help at some point, & am still so obese, how on earth could anyone even help me???
Of course i know that's just another reason that i need to get healthy & get this excess weight off my body, though i do believe that our body is created to self-heal, & that i can stop the progression of the MS, as many have, if i just follow through on what i know to do...oops, i mean WHEN, not IF!!!
So i just filled my fridge to overflowing with TONS of produce, & am ready to get back to daily smoothies, big salads & snacking on lotsa fruit!
I'm like Shannon, i love the fall, & can't wait for it to be cool enough for me to handle going for walks every day~
I'm starting to work out again in my livingroom, getting my strength up, & intend to weigh in tomorrow, do my measurements, & write out some goals for the rest of the month.
Hope you're all doing really rawsome, & having a peaceful, refreshing summer!
(I wrote this in these colors cuz i can't wait to go get a big watermelon ASAP!)