~A Realization~

Now that I'm on the other side, & back to 100% raw, I'm just looking back, & seeing some thing more clearly, & wanted to share it with y'all...
...when the breakthrough came, & i went 100% raw, because God so powerfully led me to it I wrongly assumed that there would be no struggling this time...& there wasn't, until I allowed myself to eat junk food again, & boy, did it trigger a major relapse....but I'm done, & layin' it down again, & not going to allow myself to go back & forth! My weight has stayed the same lately, even with many days of 100% raw in between. Weight loss isn't the only reason I'm doing this, but I know it will definately help with my other health problems to get this excess weight off! I've been ignoring the scale lately, just trying to get back to consistant 100% raw.
So the realization is this...I need to do whatever it takes to stay 100% raw, because when I eat any cooked food, & especially junk food, the cravings kick in, full blast...
...so {aside from staying close to & serving God, & raising & homeschooling Hannah} having my health restored is now my number ONE priority!
I can't allow ANYTHING to distract me from pressing on daily anymore! & when I run out of produce, I'm fasting, not letting myself go backwards, back to that so SAD (Standard American Diet) diet that contributed to my health's decline in the first place!!! I'm DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!