My raw coach, & close sister-friend, Shannon, asked me this today...there are reasons, but they are foolish ones. They are really just excuses, wearing a disguise.
Every day, i intend to go 100%, & end up 75% or less...as i eat the junk, my body cries out, NO!" As i drink a smoothie, or eat a big salad, i can feel my cells sigh with relief, & let out a thankful, 'YES!" I know I'm a fool to not be consistantly giving my body what it wants & needs.
She also sent me a blog today of a woman named Valerie, (I posted the link on the left, by the link to Shannon's blog) who has twice as much weight to lose as me, who's doing mainly smoothies. As i read her blog, i was moved by her determination, her willingness to go through the uncomfortableness of detoxing to get to the benefits. Most of all, i was convicted by her not letting how far she has to go stop her from pressing on, one day at a time.
The truth is, sometimes, I still have moments of feeling overwhelmed at how long the road ahead of me is...then, I get re-focussed, & return to the long road ahead of me...but I'm tired of going back & forth!!!
So I've made a decision. There will be no more going back & forth. I wouldn't do that with my faith in Christ. I wouldn't do that in my commitment to my daughter. Why have i continued to do that in my commitment to myself? I cannot any longer! That has been weakening my commitment, hindering my ability to get back on track...it's been harder every time to return, & my times of total victory, of 100% raw have been less & less. NO MORE!
So I'm recommitting, right now, that Tuesday, March 6th, there is no more fluctuations, no more going back & forth, no more partial commitment! I am now 100% raw, & staying that way, no matter what!
I just told Hannah. She's thrilled. I guess she's grown weary of my fluctuations. Me, too. Yawn.
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Anastazia,
Thanks for visiting my blog and adding a link to my page. I’m gonna link you up on my page too and we’ll be raw buddies. Best wishes.
VW
Way to go Anastazia! You can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens you!
If we are to be God's children, and become like Christ, we are also to share in his suffering. Let the flesh suffer a little while and victory will be yours! Imagine all the people you will be a great testimony to.
Love you ever,
Shannon
Hi, Valerie, thanks! I was going to suggest that! Raw Buddies, like Shannon & I! Yea! Sounds great! I really enjoyed reading your blog, & thanks for linking mine to yours! The more readers there are, the more accountability! I look forward to following your journey, & sharing mine with you!
...& thanks, Shannon, as always, for your encouragement & confidence that i CAN do this! Last night, i heard that song, "Have a little faith in me", sung by a woman...it brought tears to my eyes, with such thankfulness that God brought me a friend like you! More specifically, brought me YOU for a friend!
Love & prayers,
for you both,
~Anastazia~
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