Every day, I can feel my health improving, inch by inch, cell by cell...I so long to be able to exercise more, to be able to be on my feet more...i keep having dreams about running, swimming, climbing mountains, horsebackriding, bike-riding with Hannah~
I was remembering yesterday, with such a sense of longing, how, when living in Vancouver, I'd walk for 1/2 an hour or so to get down to the beach, & then walk
barefoot in the sand for hours, & how refreshing & envigorating it was~
I haven't even been back once to visit friends left behind there, after moving away 3 years ago, mainly due to my health. I'm hoping that before the summer ends, I'll be up to going, able to walk enough to get around on the bus & skytrain~
I'm about to make a big smoothie...I'm drinking almost twice as much as i used to, with Hannah gone, & I'm really beginning to feel the difference. It takes longer to drink, fills me up longer, but seems to be helping reduce cravings, & numerous other things. When she returns, i plan on making a blender full, pour some into our cups, & add to whatever's left to fill the blender again!
Can't wait for this week of pressure to be done, & to be able to get back to what i was hoping to accomplish while Hannah's gone...i sure don't handle deadlines like i used to be able to...it's just one more area of life my poor health has affected.
Change is so slow, & takes soooo long to happen, it seems lately~ sometimes, it's discouraging, but of course, this extra weight didn't come on my body in a month or two, & it ain't goona leave as fast as I'd like it to!
...so I'm pressin' on, trusting that the day'll come when I'll wake up in a healthy, strong body, full of energy, able to do all that God has in store for that day without struggle, pain, & the frustrations of living in an obese body~
And then, I'll walk on the beach for hours, digging my toes into the sand, & watch the sunset with Hannah at the end of a wonderful day full of adventures~
...I may even be able to get her to swim in the ocean with me!