~Silly me~

Today's weight:377 lbs (Highest: 398 on May 7th.) {Up & } down 21 lbs.
Strawberries are soooooo wonderful! Had 'em for breakfast, & a little herbal tea, & am feeling a bit better today...got some herbal sleep aid, & finally got some sleep...I know the day'll come again when i can sleep without it, & wake up refreshed, & not exhausted, but for now, if i don't get sleep, my whole life's affected, (not to mention Hannah's life!) so I've gotta do what i gotta do, for now, to be able to function.
I'm back to one raw meal at a time, one raw day at a time...& I'm 2 lbs down this morning from where i was...I've planned a day of unpacking, & stretching, & hand weights, & hopefully going for a walk tonight, if I can find my running shoes! My heels are burning in pain after walking quite a bit yesterday doing errands, wearing just my sandals, & i realize there's barely anything left of the heels...no $ to get new ones, so on days i need to walk more, I'll need to wear my sneakers, even though summer's definately arrived & it's getting hot here!
I have such a difficult time handling the heat, being out & moving around in it. I have no choice sometimes, but if i could, I'd only go out in the early morning, or evening...i do have some friends who take Hannah places with their daughters, but I was so hoping i could go out with them, too, like to the waterslide park next Thursday...but i know i could never handle the heat all day, even in the shade! I was so hoping this summer would be easier to handle than last summer...already, it feels like it'll be harder...*sigh*...unless, of course, I drop 20 or 30 lbs a month, which i know will happen if i STAY raw! So that's my focus, staying low-fat raw, one day at a time, & moving a little more every day!
Thanks, everyone, for your support, encouragement, prayers, & faith that i can do this...sometimes, i get discouraged, but i know i can't give up, or stall anymore, it's time to progress again, & get back to what i committed to doing...getting healthy, mobile, & strong, & getting on with all I'm here to do!
I pulled out my guitar & played last night, inspired after hearing Shannon play the song she wrote her daughter over the phone {...what a song! & boy, you should hear her voice! I'll let you know when her next album comes out!}
I've really missed playing & singing, it was so nice to again! That's something else I want to get back to daily doing, & eventually, sharing my songs with those I'm led to, without self consciousness because of my weight...
...one more area of my life that I've allowed my obesity to hinder me....silly me...