August 29, 2007

~The Case of the Dissapearing Week~

Wow, where have the last 7 days gone?!?!? I did say I'd blog regularily again, didn't I?
Things have been intense lately, going through the (intense) decision-making process of deciding whether Hannah will be going to the local Christian school, or if we'll continue on with homeschooling...& FINALLY, the answer became clear...AGAIN...we're going to keep homeschooling, but will implement more structure into it this year. I wish this didn't come up every year (& sometimes more!) but it always brings me to a deeper understanding of why we're doing this in the first place.
OK, confession time...I was doing really, raw-ly good there for awhile, then the siren song of McDeath's called, & I stupidly answered...& it was DAILY there for awhile! YUK! I feel horrible, but still CRAVE it...they have to put something in there that's addicting! Even as I felt worse by the day, I wanted more! & WORSE, Hannah too!
But we're done with it! Though it's evil arches can be veiwed from our bathroom window (which I now keep closed, just seeing them triggers the craving!) & it's right next door, I'm recommitted to what I said when we first moved in here, there will be NO McD's in our bodies! NONE! We were successful for awhile, but after going once, it seemed to call to us louder & louder, so it's GOT to be an ALL OR NOTHING commitment!
So I'm RAW-committed, once again, & pushing on, unwilling to allow stress to hinder me from pushing through the detox, etc. one more day.
Haven't weighed in yet, after my latest struggle, I'm a bit leery to, but will tomorrow anyways, though whatever the scale says is irrelevant at this point, but I just want a record of where I'm at. We still haven't found the camera, but I'm beginning a major purge of our home tomorrow, the clutter & unpacked boxes are affecting us both, (not to mention my company & willingness to have people over...thanks 4 your honesty, Shannon...it honestly was worse than usual, though...*blush*...)
I have been moving a bit more, even got in some walking & sunshine today, & am throwing out my rocking chair tonight & getting a stairmaster delivered tomorrow! I can't wait! Back to daily exercise, & smoothies for breakfast! (that seems to make the biggest difference in preventing cravings!)
Hope you're all pressing on & stayin' raw!

2 comments:

Shannon said...

Yay! Again I say Yay! I'm glad you're not ever giving up either Anastazia. You owe this to yourself and Hannah so keep going!

No one ever said it would be easy.

~Anastazia~ said...

How could i ever give up??? Ya ain't goona give up on me, are you?
& i know God never will...so how could I?
Why CAN'T it be easy, though??? Wahhh!
~A~