The past few weeks feel like a wasted blur of sleepy daze spent in a SAD food haze...I've been getting very erratic sleep, most nights only 5 hours or less, & often not until 5 or 6 am...I'm so TIRED of it! Literally!
I have little energy to do much, though I keep plugging away...I've tried returning to 100% raw, but have failed miserably, most days. The truth is, I feel so discouraged, & like I'm going in circles, & like my cravings are too strong to conquer...i know it's a lie, but right now, it feels true.
I've also had really intense spasms in one vertabrae of my back, (like what I've heard a bulging disk described like feeling) & pain in my neck & shoulders like never before...it seems impossible to find a comfy sleep position the last week or so, & if I get woken after even only 3 or 4 hours sleep, like today, the pain keeps me from being able to go back to sleep~
I'm sorry, i didn't plan on coming here to whine.
I don't even know why I'm writing. I've been just raw enough to remember how it feels to be 100% by how lousy i feel lately...
...the one day i started feeling better, i ate almost a whole watermelon myself throughout the day...then blew it with a lousy, sad dinner, followed by another day of back & forth struggling & giving in to more cravings & temptations.
Please pray for me, & don't give up on me...I'll get it together...if i could just remember where I put it!
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Starting to look like MYSELF again...
~My husband David & I, in 1990~
I weighed 225lbs here...
~Me, on top of the world!
~Hannah on top of the world ~
{age seven}
...And this was BEFORE the haircut!
"You want me to eat WHAT?!?!?'
{Not ALL Raw recipes are a success..."
The 1st bubble Hannah's ever blown!
~Hannah's kitty, Mittens~
"What are YOU lookin' at???"
~Our baby Blossom~
{She was the runt, Hannah said she'd blossom!"
"PUT THAT CAMERA AWAY!!!"
~Hannah in a Masque~
"It's Spa day, Mama!"
~Hannah in the Snow~
5 comments:
Hi Anastazia,
Be kind to yourself.
You are loved,
Marjorie
Hang in there ole' buddy ole' pal.
Oh boy are we in the same place right now. The only difference is you get it out in the open while I slink away into a corner and hide. Don't apologize about whining. If you can't do it here where can you do it. We both really want it so it's just a matter of getting our bodies to catch up with our intentions. One day we'll look back on this time and wonder what all the fuss was about.
Wow, thanks, guys, for the encouragement & support...I'm sorry it's taken me awhile to even respond to your comments, but I'm getting back on track & will be blogging again, & not giving in to the things that have been oppressing me...
I like what you wrote, the write stuff, about our bodies catching up with our intentions...as the Bible says, the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak! That's why I need to let Him be my strength, by myself, the struggle continues. I know victory is coming, I just need to press on, right?
~A~
oops, i mean the writer stuff, of course!
~A~
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