My Own Personal New Year!

I wrote a poem once, a long time ago, that I can't find now...it started out...

Your birthday is your own personal new year,a point in time between then....& now....

A place to look back on as a change that began in a moment of time,

a time to reflect on the time your life here on earth began with your birth,

& led you to now..................

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~Yesterday, I celebrated another point in time that re-sets the clock,

on another anniversary of my birth...

...& it's been one of the most gently profound & intense turning points of my life...so far....

The time has come for full speed ahead!

No more false starts,

starting & stopping over & over,

beginning, & then, for a variety of reasons,

withdrawing from the new direction I've been heading...

...I'm fully surrendered now to where it's clearly leading!

There is only starting over,

& allowing myself the healing found in no longer hindering my direction,

no longer choosing to linger in ditches,

rather than remaining steadfast on the narrow path...

....if I fall in one, from this day forward,

I'll just climb right on back out,

or reach up my hands to the Father to lift me from the shadows & pain

I've inflicted on myself again...

{...only He understands the deepest reasons why...}

And just now, on the beginning of the Waltons, as they speak of spring's arrival,

even as Hitler was filling the world with the coldness of his evil intentions & actions,

the mountain was coming alive with the spring's glorious beauty & wonder of new life,

& John boy began the show with his usual insight & summary of the story to follow...

"There was the struggle for Mary-Ellen to emerge from her painful winter

(her husband was killed at Pearl Harbour)

& she was emerging into a new spring of her own..."

"That is exactly how I feel....every year on my birthday, but this year, more than most!

This has been a very loooong, painful winter......making spring all the sweeter!!!

Celebrate EVERY new beginning you've been given!

Each dawn is a birth, a day to begin again...

...a birthday is a gift of another year to learn, grow & change...

...growing older is a blessing that the Lord has pre-arranged!"

...& renew a steadfast spirit within me..."