May 21, 2008

~Back & forth, like a see-saw~

Had a very emotional last few daze...had a nice visit with my sis, but other family stuff was very upsetting, & I didn't stay raw while she was here, she got KFC & popcorn & other junk & I allowed myself to indulge, & now feel like I've been hit by a truck....
...my head, tooth, & back hurt badly, I'm exhausted, & just want to do a fast to get back on track as quick as possible, but don't know if I'm up to it...we'll see how the day progresses....just finished oil pulling, & it's helped my tooth settle down, but I need to get it fixed soon!
I long to get to the place where no matter what's going on in my daily life, my commitment to doing what I know I need to do to get healthy is consistant & strong! I so much want to be there, & STAY there, but I guess I'm just not there yet...but I will persevere, & will NOT throw in the towel, as they say!
Been exercising more, stretching & using my hand weights, & getting out my physioball again, haven't been walking much (but could be on my feet longer than usual the last few times I went out!) or using the treadmill yet, but am hoping today I'll get organized & do that~
I long for the way it feels to wake up rested after a full night's sleep & have energy all through the day to do all that needs to be done...right now, I wanna crawl back into bed (just got up 2 hours ago!) but there are a ton of dirty dishes waiting for me, & the landlord wants to come over & fix some things, so I guess I better get dressed & get on with the day...wanna make a smoothie, but worried it'll aggrevate my toothache, so won't...wish I had some lemons, or stuff for the master cleanse...
...keep me in your prayers, please! I need His hand on my life, guiding & restoring me...I need complete RAWstoration!!!

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'm praying for you! Keep doing what you know is right. Enjoy every moment for what it is, and don't worry about the moments yet to come (easier said than done, I know). Keep your eyes on Jesus, He's there for you no matter what.
Blessings,
Leah

MeloMeals said...

Hang in there... I found your blog a month or so ago and relate to a lot of what you are going through with your weight. I'm not raw, but I'm vegan and will be doing a 30-60 day raw challenge this summer (July 1st)... I rely of food for comfort a lot... and I KNOW It is going to be VERY difficult for me to go raw..

~Anastazia~ said...

Thanks, Leah, so much for your encouraging words...I've been a little discouraged, & frustrated with my financial limitations keeping me from being 100%...I do trust God, & He's faithful...I just sometimes get caught up in the circumstances...so thatnks for the reminder of our friend who sticks closer than a brother!
& Hi, Melody, thanks for writing...it's nice to know there are others in this iwth me, who can relate...good for you for preparing to do a raw challenge, good to give yourself time to gear up for it, too!
I'll come check out your blog in a few minutes, looking forward to seeing who you are & where you're coming from!
~Anastazia~